Yesterday I had a rough day. It really should have been pretty simple, but because of the chaos of school starting, my day was rather complicated. I just moved and I am signing my kids up for school. Since they have never gone to school in my parish (the word parish is Louisianan for county, for those of you who don't live here), and since they have been homeschooled all of their school career, it wasn't as simple as a normal kid signing up for school. I started out on the phone, calling one person then the next, leaving voice mail messages and not really getting anywhere. So I decided to go up to the schools where I am signing the kids up respectively. I went from one desk to another, drove across town, didn't get the answer, but was sent to another place. I drove across town again only to find that the person I needed to talk to was out for the day.
I am so thankful I started the morning in prayer, because God's grace kept me from saying the things I wanted to say to the people behind each desk I visited! That has got to be some Holy Spirit fruit, because this girl can become the hulk in stressful situations like this, especially when it comes to my kids!!
I know God has a plan for each one of my kids and it was that thought that gave me peace. This moment of running around like a crazy person could ruin my day or it could bring a moment of peace to each person behind a desk who has to talk to hundreds of crazy, stressed out parents every day.
This verse I read this morning in 1 Corinthians 4:1-5 really spoke to me.
You should think of us as Christ's servants, who have been put in charge of God's secret truths. 2 The one thing required of such servants is that they be faithful to their master. 3 Now, I am not at all concerned about being judged by you or by any human standard; I don't even pass judgment on myself. 4 My conscience is clear, but that does not prove that I am really innocent. The Lord is the one who passes judgment on me. 5 So you should not pass judgment on anyone before the right time comes. Final judgment must wait until the Lord comes; he will bring to light the dark secrets and expose the hidden purposes of people's minds. And then all will receive from God the praise they deserve.
Days like yesterday are the days that we have in our lives that really test us. We all have trying days that push us to the limits of our patience. That is when our true nature is exposed.This verse both excited me and scared me at the same time. It made me think back on yesterday and wonder if my thoughts would have made God happy. It's not just what people see, but our deepest darkest thoughts that God judges. It's easy to look composed, like everything in your life is put together. But what is going on in that little noggin of yours? What do you think about when you are pushed to the limits of your sanity? I am re-training my brain to be thankful and grateful of the good things in my life instead of focusing on all the bad things that come along. Just to be honest, that does not come easy for me.
When the man behind the desk at the school board office looked at me and said I had to drive back across town to the school where my 12 year old will be attending, do you think I had nothing but happy, thankful thoughts??
Yeah, well... it's a work in progress, but Praise God, He is transforming me! Getting into Gods word and spending time in prayer changes my focus and allows me to put my trust in Him. If he can do it for me, just a normal average mom, he can do it for you! He loves you and wants a relationship with you. Take the time to get close to him and His presence will stick with you. I promise you on that!!
***Not sure why all of this is highlighted.. tried to fix it.. couldn't.. sorry!!